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I’m Still Alive

I am still alive I promise.

I’ve been writing, just not blog material. Short stories mostly, some devotionals, but mostly reading.

I’ve been traveling, attending weddings, and seeing old friends.

Such is the life of my last summer vacation.

I feel that I have learned many lessons, but mainly the lesson of waiting.



And I am still waiting. W

Waiting for adventure

Waiting for the next step

But I am alive. I have been granted the wonderful gift of Time.

Time to grow.

Time to learn.

Time to study.

So I wait and learn and grow.


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…Waiting, Waiting, Waiting…

waiting is a lonely time

waiting is a trying time

waiting, waiting, waiting

what is there to do?

waiting seems so easy

waiting seems so clear

but why is waiting

o so very hard to bear?

so I sit,

I sit

and wait some more

{plans put on hold

{thoughts stagnant

waiting for what’s next

“be patient” the silence screams

“I can’t” the heart whispers in return

waiting, waiting, waiting,

such is my life right now

this is hard to bear,

but someday I’ll look back,

thankful for this time,

I have much to learn

waiting is a growing time

waiting is a learning time

waiting, waiting, waiting,


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Be Still and {Know}

Psalm 46 if you haven’t read it recently I highly recommend it!

It’s been a week of a chaotic thinking. A week with thoughts and plans swirling around with no real purpose except to produce anxiety.

So I took the day off. I shut off my mind. I watched movies, slept, ate, and slept some more. I thought about nothing serious, I ignored friends & family. I did not make plans. It was relaxing and much needed!

And when I started thinking {again} about all of the steps and plans in life the verse that I could not get out of my head was Psalm 46:10a

Be still, and know that I am God

When the thoughts are whirling and the questions are more abundant than the answers–the next step is to be still.

I had to stop thinking. I had to take the time away from the questions to be reminded that I serve a God that is strong, powerful, and mighty. I serve a God that is sovereign. I serve a holy and perfect God who loves me more than I can even fathom.

Reading through Psalm 46 I was struck by how the author focuses on who God is, how powerful our God is. Then reminds us that we need to take the time to know who God is.

I don’t have the answers, I don’t have the plans, I don’t have strength. But when I am still, when I am not worrying about life, I can recognize that I have a God who is powerful, who is sovereign, and who has the best possible plan.

Be still, and know that I am God

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He is Leading

“MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
― Thomas Merton


~I found this quote and it just really expressed my heart! I wish I could say that I am totally trusting and acting in trust, but I am desiring God to lead and I  KNOW He will!~

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{Surrender to Stay}

With every Missions Conference, missionary speaker, or even a presentation of a ministry need, I feel a tug at my heart.

“Lord, I’ll go!”

I can’t tell you how many countries I have told the Lord I would be willing to go to!

But as I approach the next step I was struck by the thought…

{Have I surrendered to stay?} 

Of course I want to go, the adventure and the needs call to me. But what about staying exactly where I am?

That does not appeal to me at all.

But is that because I am ignoring the need? Am I ignoring the adventure placed right before me?

There are needs, and there is adventure–every morning when you get out of bed.

I will surrender to stay. 

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for such a time as this…

Esther was placed exactly where God wanted her. She was there by her willingness to obey God’s direction in her life.

When Haman plotted to have all the Jews killed, Mordecai reminded Esther that God had placed her in the palace for a reason.

4:13-14 Then Mordecai commanded to answer Esther, Think not with thyself that thou shalt escape in the king’s house, more than all the Jews.For if thou altogether holdest thy peace at this time, then shall there enlargement and deliverance arise to the Jews from another place; but thou and thy father’s house shall be destroyed: and who knoweth whether thou art come to the kingdom for such a time as this?


{…For Such a Time as This…}

4:15-16 Then Esther bade them return Mordecai this answer, Go, gather together all the Jews that are present in Shushan, and fast ye for me, and neither eat nor drink three days, night or day: I also and my maidens will fast likewise; and so will I go in unto the king, which is not according to the law: and if I perish, I perish.

Esther did not know where her obedience to God would take her. She may have even been killed for her actions.

But what stuck out to me was the fact she did not just rush into action. She called for the Jews to fast & pray. She planned the gatherings, the guests, the menus. She took time and asked for wisdom, then took action.

So even while I wait, I know I am in the place God has for me. He has prepared me for such a time as this.

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In light of the the upcoming holiday Purim I decided to take some time and study the mysterious character of Esther.

{The maid was fair and beautiful}

This is the first reference to Esther in the Bible. She was known for her beauty~

2:15 “And Esther obtained favor in the sight of all them that looked upon her”

{She was beautiful}

{She was wise}

She obtained favor, she was wise in how she interacted with people.

I admit imagine her tall and graceful, sweeping in and exuding the confidence that makes the King fall madly in love with her.

Fairy tale and fantasy maybe~

God gave us Esther as an example to follow.

God used Esther, her beauty and wisdom, to save her people from destruction.

{be as breathtakingly beautiful as Esther}

Beautiful {Inside & Out}

We may not understand the situations we are placed in. We may never fully understand why.

But our God has a plan.

Am I wiling to be used of God? Am I waiting on His timing?

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Just Waiting~

So today I had a lovely LifeChat with a godly leader in my life. And it was a {blessing} to my Soul.

He asked the hard questions and waited as I hemmed & hawed around the answers.

We discussed the next step, we discussed interests, we discussed geographical locations, we discussed ministry–we discussed it all.

And his wisdom to me was this:

“Keep the sails up. Keep the boat prepped & ready to go. But for now…there’s no wind. So just wait”

God has been working in my life recently.  I knew almost before going into that meeting that would be the advice given to me. It’s just a louder and clearer voice telling me “Sarah, be patient, just wait”

{I didn’t cry, but can I tell you…that’s hard to hear}

So Lord…Here I am. Just waiting. Preparing and serving, but waiting. Lord keep me patient, keep me serving, keep me dependent on you.
*This song was instantly brought to my mind. It’s been a source of encouragement as I plan the next step in life~

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

~John Waller~

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